This is the start

This is the start.

Well not the actual beginning but something near enough. It is coming up to my 22nd birthday and I feel that I have put myself in this situation where I am not moving forward. I have been stuck in the same place for the last three years. It is a long time, I know. When I say this I  mean both physically and mentally. After going through what should have been the most important milestone in my lift thus far, then seeing it go wrong slowly and then all at once, is heartbreaking. I understand that life did not end and the world is still turning but me, what am I doing? This is a question I have asked my self my whole life.

I need to find out.

xxx